So who's this guy I am reading, anyway?

#1 - Most folks call me by the name “Sean” - it is nice to meet ya

If you are reading this, then perhaps you already know me. For those readers that don’t, I would like to introduce myself.

My name is Sean, and I am the “hue-man” behind this publication. The silly sounding nickname will make more sense later if you decide to keep reading. First and foremost though, I would like to thank you for spending a few minutes to get to know me.

Over the course of my life until now in my mid-thirties, I have experienced much squalor and much splendor, alike. Honestly, if you’re alive, in a body, and on Earth at this time, who hasn’t? It’s part of the gig, and we all know how it feels to “go through it”.

In my experience on Earth so far I’ve hit many major low points that I was sure I’d never recover from. One time a few years ago I got so drunk that I slipped on the tile in my bathroom and cracked my head open on my own toilet, knocking myself out in the process. It took me over a week to recover physically from that, yet it took almost a year before I stopped beating myself up with embarrassment and shame for having mentally slipped so far as to allow something like that to happen. That was one of the more serious incidents, however there is a long list of gritty and especially drunken foibles that I had to learn to rise from in order to break the vicious cycles that robbed me from claiming my, our, birthright power.

The Legend of The Phoenix shows us that we must set fire to our former and less experienced selves to rise as a greater being from their ashes. We must do this as many times as needed during the span of our lives as we grow, like snakes shedding their old skin, and we always know when it is time to molt. Yet human beings are capable of stopping the growth process, where snakes and Phoenixes are not. Each one of us, as an individual, is truly the only person who can do our own work, but how many of us actually rise to the call to do the life changing “shadow work” that truly matters? Yeah, yeah, more new age spiritual fluff, right?

On the flip side of the darkness there is the light. Trudging through dark waters with determination to learn and grow from them, I have also risen to higher highs than my young, chronically anxious and suicidal self could have ever imagined during the times he felt so overshadowed by guilt, shame, and gloom that he could no longer see The Sun on a summer day. During those days I honestly thought it was crazy to think that I would ever make it past 30 years of age. Now, a handful of years past that old and depressed benchmark, through a new wealth of experience, I live the life I always dreamt of having during the dark years, and I am honored to share that the old version of myself perished several times over on the winding dusty road that I traveled to get here. Each time my old self died, a new version who was stronger, more thoughtful, and significantly kinder, was born.

During the onset of the 2020 pandemic, I was asked to move out of my in-law apartment, and decided to go for the bicycle ride of a lifetime from Oregon to NYC to spread my dog Tucker’s ashes all across the country. I can’t even tell you how difficult that journey was on some days, but on others I experienced what the Buddhists would refer to as “Nirvana”. I almost died of heat stroke and dehydration on the 104°f first day of my tour, yet as I faced my own impending doom, while I watched the world darkening around me, I asked for help earnestly and inwardly from the Great Creator within. I closed my eyes and asked the force of Consciousness itself to send a man in a truck to save me from certain death on the side of that road up the Cascade Mountains. Moments later I found that exactly what I prayed for was delivered as a kind soul named Randy stopped his truck on the side of the road to pick me up to take me to where I could find water and a campsite to recover for two days.

(Day by day journal entries telling the story of the bicycle tour have been chronicled in my forthcoming book “Control Yourself”. If you are connected to a publisher who might be interested in the project, please get in touch! I’ve been through multiple rounds of edits and am just about ready to negotiate a deal to bring the book into the world.)

Completing the bicycle tour opened my mind to perceive the world in ways that I previously had tasted the concepts of, but didn’t earnestly understand until directly experiencing the truly “psychedelic, kaleidoscopic, ever-shifting, and fractalized” nature of reality, first hand. The journey was a trust-fall where I asked the Universe to embrace me in her loving arms, telling her that I trusted her completely with my life, while asking her to deliver me where I wanted to go, in once piece, as long as I was willing to put the work in. There were days where I questioned myself and my ability to succeed, but my inner knowing told me to keep going, and I trusted that knowing with my life.

Using the observation of experience lived as a guide, I realized through the low moments and the ecstatic highs of my life, that “life itself is the trip". The experience of living a life in a human body with no instruction manual, and no information about how you got here or “what’s out there” is more hardcore than any psychedelic drug that a person could take, and when we really put ourselves out there with trust in the unknown… oh baby, that’s when we receive the real magic that this reality and the forces that govern it have to offer us. We realize that courage is not found in order to grant us permission to walk through the gateway of fear. It is the reward we claim on the other side of that daunting gateway, after we walk through it with complete trusting belief in knowing that we will be alright if we put our heart into our efforts while holding a steadfast belief in the limitless nature of the Human Spirit.

Now that we know a little more about me through some of the lows & highs that I have experienced, I will say that I have observed all of them from the highest vantage point that I could, to see what was invisible to me at the ground level as I went through them. Through direct experience I have been studying the phenomenon of how shifting one’s conscious awareness shifts their reality, and I am nearly always completely engrossed in observing the omnipresent sets of patterns, clues, and cues about life’s greatest secrets that Mother Nature continuously displays to whoever has the eyes to see them.

You will come to find through your own practice that this experience is a bit like when Neo “takes the red pill” in “The Matrix”, though. Once your awareness shifts to a certain level, there is no going back to the old ways you saw the world. While you are still here in the same body (probably, lol, but we won’t get into that now), you no longer see your environment as you once did, because your elevated perception has created a new world of possibilities within your mind with an infinite map of pathways to explore.

I believe the keys to everything we could ever want to know about what “life” is, are already within us and all around us, staring right in to our faces. We can study our minds and our reality to figure the mathematical patterns of the “life program” out, to predict what could potentially come next after the “Earth Experience”. We could use what our practice leads us to find in our hearts to bring peace to this Earth for aeons of time, by living in harmony with the Will of Consciousness and Nature. At the end of the day, though, your guess as to what the experience of this life is really all about is as good as mine, because whatever we decide is real becomes our reality. But we can talk more about that in another post. Still with me? We are going bring it home shortly. And yeah, this stuff is dense, I know.

So - I’ve told you the name they call me, I’ve told you a few things I’ve experienced, and how those things shaped how I look at the world, and yet we’ve found ourselves back at the question… “who are you again, dude?”.

To that I say, I am no-body. I am the spark of light that lit the fire that set my sacred heartbeat in motion, and I am the energy that beats it. I am the bridge between Heaven and Earth where the Sawtooth Mountains cut the powdery blue sky. You can call me Sean, Hue-Man, Terry, or whatever the F you want, but whatever you choose to call me is up to you because I know exactly who I am, and I know what I came to this Earth to contribute. So if you made it this far, I both thank you and congratulate you for getting started on this new writing journey with me. If you thought this was “weird”, then buckle up, partner, because this ride is going to get weirder as we go 🤠

Each week I will be providing something for my readers to ponder, practice, or completely disregard if they want to. I am not here to tell anyone what to do or how to think, but I am here to share what has absolutely transformed my own life in ways I never could have imagined during my darkest days/months/years. My hope is that if even one other person resonates with something shared here and applies it to find success, the experiences that were lived and shared will have served a greater purpose than my those of own self-interests.

Many of us seem to think that we are special because we are different, but perhaps what is actually true is that we are special because we are all the same. We all have the same light in our eyes, and though we all travel our own roads, they all lead back to the same place in the end.

This week we are practicing a very powerful mantra. “Every day, in every way, we are getting better and better.” We will repeat this sentence in our minds or out loud for at least one minute per practice session. Do it several times throughout the day with rests in between.

It is incredibly important to be consistent in our practice throughout the day, and throughout the week, making sure to put intentional conscious effort into doing this work, however we never beat ourselves up if we get busy and can’t make the time, because we already know that what we put in is what we get out. We want to remain fully present when we practice, so we leave our phones in the other room. We focus our mind on the mantra, and we feel the words deeply as we say them. We believe each word deeply and fully, knowing that what we are saying is completely true in every way.

It takes time to build simple yet revelatory practices like this into our minds and actions, but the benefits we directly experience by following through with what we start make the effort seem trivial after a while. A helpful signal that it would be a good time to practice is whenever we observe an uncomfortable thought surfacing in our mind, we use that observation to cue the practice of the mantra. With our new mantra, we remind ourselves that not only is everything going to be OK - it is already OK, and if we can learn to shift our awareness to a state in which we can feel that this is absolutely true, well, this is how we “level up” into the next world of the “life game” we’re all playing.

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Have a solid week my dear fellow Human Beings. Got questions? Get in touch and let’s talk. Maybe I’ll send ya a photo of my new puppy too ;)